Monday, June 30, 2003
I never asked for this feeling
I never thought I would fall
I never knew how I felt
Till the day you were gone
I was lost
I never asked for red roses
I wasn't looking for love
Somehow I let my emotions take hold
And guess what all at once
I'm in love
Chorus:
Oh, I miss you so much
I long for your love
It's scares me
Cuz my heart gets so weak
That I can't even breathe
How can you take things so easily
Baby why aren't you missing me?
Why did I act like you mattered
It was silly of me to believe
That if I just opened my heart
Things would come naturally
Joke's on me (yeah)
I did not ask for love letters
So why did you give them to me (to me)
How could I let your intentions
Get over on me
So in love
So naive (oh baby)
Chorus
And oh how I hate what you have done
Made me fall so deep in love
God knows you're the only one I want
That I love oh baby
Chorus
Baby why aren't you missing me?
Baby why aren't you missing me?
--insignificant lies--
3:19 am
hi... had a gd time again with feli today. well as always la...
i really miss her now and i dunno how long i can handle b4 seeing her again.hehe...
tmr i got maths paper sia. quite scary but then again im not tt scared. its just maths for gods sake. wat do i have to be scared about? i also dunno... haiz..
really miss feli sia... haiz... i also dunno wat going on btw us sometimes. i wonder wat she is thinking in her head sia. do u think she feels the same way? i also dunno. i dun want to think about it. now im just making do with the situation n the limits she is allowing me. i feel like kissing her all the time but i dun want to do anything rash n stupid just cos im feeling lusty. urgh! oh well... i miss holdingher hand. i am seeing her tmr.. kk.. cool... maintain maintain... urgh... dunno how long i can last w/o actually kissing her. she is so cute. urgH!!!!!!
and i must stop it with my silly jealousy. she talks about someone in a nice way only i jealous. like i feel like they are competition like tt. i guess its scary la. u so scared u lose the person tt u get worried abt everything. why am i so scared i will lose her aah?? am i learning from past mistakes?? past mistakes is also holding me back. preventing me from telling her how i feel. but i know...deep deep down in me.. no matter wat anyone says... she just thinks of me as her fren. tts alll... or else why wld she be checking out guys in front of me all..n she still wants to find a guy for herself... so yah..she's str8. so str8. so i shld just enjoy this moments tt we have with each other. n soon this infatuation will pass... i hope.. pls let it pass!!!!!! pls... pls... pls... pls... pls... im begging u... urgH!!!!!!
i am not in love with feli.
--insignificant lies--
3:01 am
Saturday, June 28, 2003
hey... i really like this person...i really really do..i miss the person...urgh!!!!!
--insignificant lies--
2:53 am
